Yea i am fucking dumb and stupid.
SO?
U think u are so fcuking great?
I promised ms phang not to get angry or stuffs
i been trying to contain my fustration since i broke up with her
U think is so fucking easy?
Yea u are smart and i am fcuking stupid
U are the great guy
I post those and hurt people feelings?
I apologise about it already
what do u still fucking want?!
After i broke up with her i tried to get back into the clique.
It was so damn fcuking hard.and u have to make it worst.
While i was waiting for glenn.U guys came down
Then u said u waiting here for what
Of course i am waiting for glenn la.
U sounded as if i am not in the clique.
Since u want me out.
SO BE IT!

BADMINTON! 5:14 AM

English was screwed badly.
Don know what to do.
I see my next year life.
I see myself in the classroom in BMSS
listening to teacher.
doing my work,
Damn! No way that will happen!
Going to chiong for the rest of my subjects!!!
Life isn't easy.
But i will pull it through.
and yes i have changed.
I am a callous and heartless guy
I opened my heart but it got pierce badly.
Its bleeding hard but nth i could do to stop it.
Going in exams with an heavy heart,
But still i got to make it through,someway or somehow.
Really am tired.But i will still fight on.
Things ain't as what they are.
But still.
I still love you

BADMINTON! 5:57 AM

"Time To Say Goodbye"
I just don't want to waste another day
I'm trying to make things right
But you shove it in my face
And all those things you've done to me I can't erase
And I can't keep this inside
It's time to say goodbye
On the first day that I met you
I should have known to walk away
I should have told you you were crazy
And disappear without a trace
But instead I stood there waiting
Hoping you would come around
But you always found a way to let me down
It's time to say goodbye
After all the things I've done for you
You never tried to do the same
It's like you always play the victim
And I'm the one you always blame
When you need someone to save you
When you think you're going to drown
You just grab your arms around me and pull me down
It's time to say goodbye
Now I'm gone
It's too late
You can't fix
Your mistakes
I was trying to save you from you
So you scream
So you cryI can see
Through your lies
You're just trying to change me
Somewhere in the distance
There's a place for me to go
I don't want you to hate me
But I think you need to know
You're weighing on my shoulders
And I'm sick of feeling down
So I guess it's time for me to say goodbye

Sometimes i really wonder the why am i trying so hard yet the result seems so depressing
I really love her but now i am really at a loss of what to do.
My life now seems so aimless.
I'm really trying very hard.
But i guess all my actions are mistakes.

BADMINTON! 6:20 PM

O levels in 2 more days and i am shitty dead for it
Physics.everyone seems to know their stuffs except for me
Keep asking help from mrs chang but then again others as well
so i am neglecting my physics now.
No point for be working so hard yet still i get the same shitty results
Went to school today.
Didn't had the mood for anything
but just took out my maths and do and do
saw her just now.
it was hard ignoring her
it was just hard
But i can't do anything
i really wanted to approach her
didn't had the courage
Really hate this situation
O levels
crucial and vulnerable period of my life
No mood for anything.
things comes and go
Things happens and forgotten.
Thanks ariel for always being there and chatting with me
Thanks Leona jie for always cheering me up and trying to make me smile and talk me through life
Thanks Yong leng for giving me advice on almost everything:D

BADMINTON! 2:41 AM

O levels are in 5 days time.i have yet to prepare anything
will i succeed in acing it?
Or will i retain?
i am really trying my best to study hard
But if it is not enough.
i have no words to say
I don know why u are ignoring me
i really want to know the reason why.
Just hope that everything will be over after O levels
Such a cruical period time of my life.
but i am about to lose control of my life
I am really dead

No matter what happens.i promise i will always be there for u if it within my means
U had already been part of my life.
U are already someone i has no wish to lost.

BADMINTON! 7:21 PM