Things has worsen
When to library to study.
it was raining.
didn't bothered,just walked in the rain
studied for few hours,
went back home to rot and emo
too tired for anything anymore
Got scolding for no reason again
just because of my sister
JUST BECAUSE SHE IS CLEVER?!
JUST BECAUSE SHE IS MUCH BETTER?!
WHY DO I GET ALL THE F**KING SCOLDINGS BUT NOT HER
HAPPENED SINCE YOUNG TILL NOW!
DAMN F***ING PISSED OFF



didn't went out with her
Wanted to date her out
but she went out with her good friend
i admit,i am quite jealous,since i didn't knew who was that guy
but i can't do anything as well
she has her freedom.i can't do anything much
chatted with her just now on msn
she left even before i could finish what i wan to say
reallly....don know what to say
For the very fact that i need u to be by my side
i need u badly
but,what can i say.
u wan me focus on o levels
u wan me focus on studies
but i just CAN'T
I CAN'T!
u said words that really hurt me
i really wan to make it out to be a badminton player
but u said how am i suppose to make it when i lose to calvin
u were right
i lose to him
but i also have my reason in losing
Badminton was like the best thing in my life
Losing to him already cause much agony
But u said those words
really hurts me even more
Really F***ing hate myself
why am i so weak?!
Althought had no friends.no family to be there for me
to be give the support
All i could was to depend on u
i really don know why
when u said those words
i was already very pissed off
but i just kept it to myself
i told myself to really control.
Really controlled
Sometimes the words u used and said to me really hurt my feelings
But i don dare to tell u for the very fact i fear that ur feelings really get hurts
i don want to be like ur Ex.
i really wan u to be happy
But i have no more place to vent my anger and sorrow on.
Everybody has their own problems
I guess now i only can depend on my blog to vent my furstation
really hopes things will be over soon
i don wan to dwell on this and affect my o levels
too afraid to fail
Really hope things will go well again between me and u.
Really missed the first two weeks of
that i spent with u..
i missed those times
I fear history would repeat itself
I have nightmares every single day
Really don wan to to lose u like what happened to My Ex-lover
i really don wish to lose u
i really love u deep in my heart
I guess the problem lies in me bah
I haven't been a very good boyfriend
Never really understand how u feel
i am sorry
Hope u will be back to me
U were the one that pull me out of the misery
i really love u with my life and the bottom of my heart vows for it


Thanks vasnavi for cheering me up
Thanks evelyn for cheering me up
Thanks ariel for being there for me when i am so down and bored
I guess i just need some time to cool down bah
Till here...bye
Only can be contacted through moble phone
Only will attend to serious matter


Really hope the situation will be turned around
Really hope things will change
U had already become a part of me

BADMINTON! 9:37 AM