Today is a Great day:D
school was ok.
damn sleepy so i just stare at teacher
trying to do my work
had a math common test
i know i will fail for sure
i slept,but ms phang wake me up and scolded me
then was waiting for time to fly,
can't wait to meet her
met up with her after her band:D
went for lunch with her:D
then she fed me:D
she held my hands:D
i was stunned at the moment but mange to hold her hands also
then we went to tiong park slack
she tried to chase me
but she can't(i am way too fast for her)
then when back home to take the paperwork for my uncle
she waited at the void deck of my house
so i went home changed and grab the paperwork and rush down
i went to the back of her and scare her
she was scared-ed
then we went to holland village
then instead we went to the playground near there
there is a cat there
we played with the cat:D
then went to meet my uncle.
after which i had dinner with her:D
waited 30 mins with her for the bus:D
i enjoyed every moment when i was with her:d
she makes me feel so free and feel so in love:D

BADMINTON! 6:07 PM

met up with my uncle just now
he wanted me to help him take from my dad's IC and some title deed or smth
then he asked if i had my dinner and wanted to give me money.
i rejected him cause didn't bear to take it.
hahas
he is the only relative from my father side that treats me he nicest
when he was staying with him, he always buy drinks for me when i was downstairs playing badminton
so i told myself the moment i make it big, he will be one of those that i will be grateful to

BADMINTON! 2:52 AM

Tears rolled out of my eyes along my cheek as i'm been haunted by the past memories and the fact that i have lose so many people around me.
First i lose my mummy(X** ***). now i no longer talk to her.we are as if strangers
then i lose my friends around because of that bastard
then now i lost gloria because another fcuker.
i gues my looks can't compared to him and i have a fcuking attiude problem unlike him,
a nice guy and kind
i don know what to do now
so many people close to me are gone
i fcuking hate being treated as a subsitube
i am not 1 subsitube to be treated for both friends and people close to me
i try to be nice and i am taken for granted
i love F so much
but what i get is nothing while i try to be there for her
the stuffs i done is not much as compare to what he does for u i guess
really am tired
miss lim made a card for me
i thought that is the only source of motivation
but i fcuking lost the card
i am fcuking stupid and clusmy and dumb
i fcuking hate myself
i guess now i stand alone and walk along while tears roll down my cheeks

BADMINTON! 10:04 AM

i don know why i am so dumb!!!
i lose the card that miss lim gave it to me
it is so preious... now is gone...why i am i so dumb!!!
i hate myself for being so clumsy!!!

BADMINTON! 8:00 AM

u made me lose all hope
u made me give up on everything
then now u said i want u to vanish
what a way to twist things around
i fcuking tired...really don know what i should do
things around changed
changed so much
too tired to carry on

BADMINTON! 7:53 AM

i guess i am been forgotten
i am out of ur life
ur jinlong kor was right
i will leave u
but do i have a choice?
while i am gone, i just hope that there will still be someone there for
u can go find ur jinlong kor and ur ZS
i am tired and exhasted being ur subsitube.
i really am tired and stress out from all these work around
but do u know?
do u understand?
i am not u so i have no idea as well
really am tired...
i really do
i guess i have no chioce bah
u might blame me for not talking to u
u might blame me for not bothering about u
but i am busy with work
i am fcuking stress and tense up
i am lots of work to do
but i also can't say anything
i was once someone close to u
but now i feel that i am just something that u have used already and been putting up on to the shelf and collect dust
i am really tired...
if u wan u blame me for all these that happened
i won't utter a word
i won't speak a syllabus
but know that.i still regard u as my sis
i will not be seen by u again
i will not heard by u again
i will not appear in front of u again.

BADMINTON! 4:03 AM

No longer know what i am
Exhasted from all these stuffs
really am tired
trying hard to pull it all through
i guess i am alone from now on
Not gona give up
wana thank my friends for being there
but for now i just believe is best that i am on my own
Don wish u all to get hurt as well
rather me alone get hurt then u guys
Move on without me
Don know what really i should do
not gona tear
not gona cry
got to buck up and stand on my own
believing in myself
having faith in myself
gona run
gona fly
gona soar
gona be my best
gona be what i wan to be
gona be what i dreamt of
So long people

BADMINTON! 5:21 AM