Finally i am back from camp.
Firstly,had Ncc annual camp.
two days 1 night
1st day
went there to slack and supervise
a lot of bad comments
i still wonder if really the sec 3 can make it
i have my doubts
then played soccer
then played basketball
leg cramp like siao
the muscle was super stiff even if i relaxed.
but carry on playing
then had field cooking...
then went to set up the dometries
the sec 3 was getting screwed badly.
chatted with gloria
go bath
go kpo on fazul and farel
then play basketball at 12am
went back to hall to sleep
fazul disturb me like siao
slepy at 2 or 3 am.(forget)
woke up at 4 am to go mac
waited till 6am then can go out
went to mac before going pulau ubin
damn pissed off again
fidarus don know to set the checkpoint
he don even know where he is.
so ride bike around and around
to think he is clever....
oh my god
finish checkpoints
just anyhow put
then went to have coconuts
then ride to the place to welcome them
then had lunch
they almost counted wrongly the packets for the lunch
went to the sofa
slept for two hours
woke up
everything seem so blur
only thing i know must go back sg
so followed...
we didn't know we have to pay for our transport fees
so i form $2.50 tigers clan with SIm as our boss
go back school.
then pop
YES!!!
can focus on my studies
no need go back ncc till o level finishes
went back online to chat
fell asleep while smsing
woke up at 7 to go school for combine UG
they were cooking maggie mee
then go for the camp
thought it will be fungot ice breaker games
keep guilaning:D
so fun
then never particpiate in scouts and SJAB activites
cause preparing for PDS
so i would like to apologise to SJAB about that
then after pds performance we taught them
now this is the climax of all
that cadet don know to teach them
talk like F*** so i helped him a bit
then i teach half way
then i got scolded by my sir
FIsh la!
then later i saw the scout girl sleep
DAMN PISS
first they engage in thier own stuffs
then never listen
then now sleep infront of me
i was damn damn damn damn DAMN pissed
so i bang the rifle and wake her up
i took 1 step back and smile
then i throw the rifle
and walk away.
people were stunned
lucky got jia xi and gang to cover up for me
then went back
swallowing my pride and explained to them
didn't bother much to teach them anymore
so i do my own things
guilan around again
then go teach SJAB
AT LEAST THEY WILLING TO LEARN!!!
that is what i liked about them
so enthu
Including Band also...HAHA!!!
at least the boys bridage never listen but know the steps
the scouts....
only two people willing to learn
what can i say
no disclipine enough,,,
haix...then after that got dinner...
no mood to eat
then eat a bit
start boys brigade's activites...
out of 6 of the seniors...
only i particpate sia!!!
i ran around the whole school!!! but i left with two suspects
but they wan it as a essaY!!!!!!!WTH!!!!
then forget it liao....waste my effort...
then got the performance...blah blah blah
then went home with gloria...waited like 20 mins plus
then my mum was in the bus
but i didn't realised it...
then go home now going to sleep..
BYE!

BADMINTON! 8:13 AM

BADMINTON! 10:56 PM

Wasted 1 week of my holiday liao....
left 1 week to chiong my A math..
Not forgetting other subject
monday-tuesday got NCC camp
Wed-sun chiong library to study like siao...

Just now went to library study...did a maths...1 qn
E math...4 Qn
Chemistry. 1 chapter...
i am so dead X.X
then watch "Drag me to hell"
AGAIN

kana scare again...
damn funny sia...
hang out at tiong park for a while
Emoed at the swing.
keep on thinking of the time when i was with her..
i trying really hard to forget her
but i just can't
but what can i do?

i guess now is time for me to study and do my best
Fear of going ITE
i really wan to make it to JC/POLY

i will not give up!!!
i will do my best!!!!

BADMINTON! 6:49 AM

Don know why i am still awake at this time.
Everybody is sleeping while i am still awake
Don't know what i should do.
Feel so lost.
been having sleepless nites
Kept thinking of her
Your that voice i hear inside my head.
Is reason for my existance
Your colourful smile,bring dazzling rainbow in my life.
But now that u are gone.all these goes with u
memorises with u are kept in my heart
what i am without u?
Once i was a lonely person.
blaming the whole world for everything
Ever since u came to my life.
Everything changes.
i was cheerful
happy.
everything was great
but now u had left.
i am back to what i am.
No longer motivated to do anything else
i really damn tired of stuffs around
Been thinking.
what is life?
what is my goals
what am i going to do in the future?
what is i can't make it to badminton association?
will i retain again?
I really don know to answer all these questions
i really feel like giving up
Love gives and takes strength away.
Should i continue fighting for what i love?
fight for what i ever dreamt?
i'm really confused
Spending my time blasting my music
Forgeting and forsaken the stuffs around me.
Really wan to continue pursuing my dreams
what do i really want of my life?
Now i am just like an aimless soul just studying for the sake of not disappointing the people that cares
I really don wish to get into love again.
All i wan is like any ordinary guy
Excel in what he strive.
Reach for his dreams.

BADMINTON! 9:30 AM

Got my results back.
flunk everything except math chinese and combine science
Went out with friends.
had great times with them
never fails to make me smile.
putting a lot of effort in my studies now
not gona give up
no matter how hard it is..
i guess now i am out of ur life isn't it?
guess he is better then me in every ways
i am just a failure.
thanks for being my sweetie anyways
i know lifes has to go on.
but i still feel without u something is missing in my life.
life isn't the same now
Gona focus on my studies.
Love is out of my reach now
Gona reach to my dreams and distinctions.
thanks for being there for me anyway.

BADMINTON! 5:57 AM

took o level chinese today.
paper 1 was alrite
paper 2 was easy
but because i was dumb,i don know to do paper 2
so i conclude i will fail the paper.haix
lost my wallet ytd
spent the whole night looking for it
i guess is was stolen by some MF.
Spent 2 hours and over $100 paying for this lesson that i had learnt
what can i say?is just my luck
seems to be losing my stuffs.
i even lost my paper for writing the testimonials.
trying very hard not to be upset with the things around.but i just can't help it
really need someone here with me
don't have the mood to hang out with the gang anymore
too tired for stuffs
really need u by my side
looking at u,walking around from me
fearing of facing u,only dare to talk to u by msn.
i really don know what to do now
i feel so lost.
shall updated what happened at sentosa some other time.
till here. Loving her every moment

BADMINTON! 4:21 AM