Badminton training for myself starts from today...
Damn tired.
all i have in my mind is just being the best in badminton not in singapore but in the WOHLE WORLD!

BADMINTON! 7:02 AM

went for tuition ytd.suppose to have 2 lessons but only went for 1
cause we had to prepare for freddy's birthday
we went to takeshimaya to buy the things.
then we went to his condo to prepare everything.
also bought choya,cause xinying want to try the fruit inside.
so i drank 3/4 of the bottle then the rest the others shared.
freddy also bought royce.IT WAS SUPER NICE!!!!
i guess he spent a lot for his birthday
the condo that we went was super nice and super new.
freddy also went there once....
everyone came,we start preparing.
its was fun to cook the steak and salmon.
just anyhow add seasoning....
then we had lots of fun cooking
:D
but for the fact that that S just come see and block my way...Shole
we then all went down to serve everyone.
sang birthday song to him.
the cake was brought in
he was stunned.
then everyone took their share but there wasn;t enough
so i didn't eat,went to emo at the pool
i smsed her,she never reply to any of my msg:(
so had to chat with my godsister.
glenn went back up to cook for those haven taken their food.
then i ate the steak.it was nice.
then we played blind mice.
something SUPER funny happened...hehe
Han....haha
played true or dare.
we had lots of fun.
kiss and hug there.
secret being told.
everything was to kept within ourselves
Karmeng got whack on the head by the bottle due to fred
haha.I must say freddy has a good aiming.
there was the *konk* sound.haha
then ppl started to leave.
getting lesser.
but still carried on the game.
i merely said something wrong
and does he nid the F*** to make a F***ing big fuss abt it
shouted.sorry guys.
i can't blame freddy for inviting him,but he knows that he is F***ing hated but still come.
and for the fact that nobody wants him to be around
not to be evil,
but he was TRYING to mix around with us but only the good kind soul bothered abt him
somemore don act like u very popular but the fact is nobody like u.
when back to his house to clean up
feel like sleeping...
We went KBox after which.
Fred sang his lungs out till he had sore throat.
had lots of fun.
Thanks han for the taxi ride home
went home at 4:20
Slept at 4:41.
Got lots of hw undone...shit men...haha
any way HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRED!

BADMINTON! 11:11 PM

Today is Free Cone day!!!
Went to get 1 too with my friends
oh men 4C just rocks men.
little actions of theirs makes me feel that someone stil cares for me
oh god bless them:D
thats why action speaks louder then words
Was quite piss off today.
Cause thinking of her make me emo
then i was just giving a suggestion but i got shoot back...
WTF men...
then the same guy.
in bio class...cause ms prema asked why i keep long finger nails.
i am lazy to cut...
then he said i use it to dig nose...
WTF MEN!
DID I F****** OFFENED U?
i just stood up and point middle finger.
ms prema was STUNN!
i sat down she stared at me
i just pointed middle finger at that batard again
then ms prema was stunn again...
haix...then i just get on with normal life....
gona control my anger...almost flip the table...
ANGER MANAGEMENT IN PROGRESSS




flame of passion for badminton never burns out in me
no matter what i will get into the best badminton club and prove that i am 1 of the best

ALSO...

i still <3 hers!

BADMINTON! 5:54 AM

Had chem today.super fun
ms prema asked questions i just said i know i know(even though i really don know)
after the last questions.she took her stick and i ran out of the class....
haha
she couldn't whack me:P
tomorrow gona have her class again
WOOOTS
I HATE PHYSICS!
i don even understand a single shit out it...
shall not say anything about the teacher....
I miss u...every moment every minute every sec
i think of u all the time.
i really need u.
where are u??
saw u at the staircase.
did u realise i was infront of u?
Emo as i am,....
blasting my music..
doing pull ups
doing push ups
torturing myself.
both physically and mentally..
i wan to get out of this sch .
i wan to join badminton club
just focus totally on badminton.
is time that i forget her.
time that focus on training myself.
but i just can;t
i think of u everytime.
what i am without u?
i really need u sayang!

BADMINTON! 7:25 AM

I miss ur sweet smiles
I miss ur hug
i miss ur care
i miss walking with u home
i miss walking with u at HV
i miss playing the swing with u
i miss drinking green tea with u
i miss the times when i was u
i wish time will go back
i wish all these never happened
Guess we are just merely friends
thanks for letting me know what loves is
despite u leaving me
thanks for everything that u have done
sorry for throwing my temper at u
sorry for not being there for u
I still love u<3
though i had tried.just hope u will stay happy
i will be out of ur life from now on.

BADMINTON! 6:35 AM

I guess we are not meant to be together
no matter how hard i tried u still wouldn't accept
u will be thinking how i am a disappointment to u
how bastard i am
just like those asshole out there
but the fact is.
i really love u
i really do
but do u understand?
i not sure either cause i am not u
s ur chioce anyway.
i can't control cause i am nobody to u
i can't do anything eithe
i guess u are really disappointed in me
i guess u no longer trust me anymore
i guess u no longer wan to give me any chances anymore
i guess it is over
i guess we gona go our own separate ways.
i guess i am out of ur life
i guess i am not the right guy for u
i guess u have ur own dream i have mine
since u wan it this way, i respect ur decision.
good luck on finding the guy of ur dreams
guess i am not the 1.
guess there are much better guys other then out there
u are the second girl in my life whom i cried for other then my grandma's funreal
and i cry because i am sad,not i am weak
but still i do love u.<3
thats the only thing i wan u to know.
Good Luck and Farewell
i don know what will become of me.
i not sure if i am really able to make it throught.
i guess i just have to try my best.
for those that hve hopes on me.
just give it up.
is no use.
i am just another below average guy and sux in everything.
i just wan let it out!!!!
Being camping at home to emo.
anything just sms...freaky sian to talk in msn.

BADMINTON! 2:34 AM

I don know why am i blogging instead of studying...
guess this is the only way i can talk abt my feelings to...
Everyone changed....so have I
really tired of everything around
my stamina had dropped a lot
after she leaves me,
i don know what has been going on in my life.
not in the mood to do my work
Doing stuffs that not concerning my studies
i wonder how am i suppose to get my distinction
How am i suppose to prove myself to those who look down on me
how am i suppose to do my mum proud and not waste her effort on me
i really need a break from all these
From everything around
i am really stress and tense up.
i really need u
where are u?
I misses the times when i was with u
the walks around H****** V******
The swings that we sat together with our green tea,Emoing.
Walking u home,
Taking the same bus sitting beside u
I really don't know what i am without u
I don know what i have become
I feel like a freak now
Emo with my music.
Guess that is all i can do
Waiting for u to hold me in ur arms.
Waiting for u to pull me out of this misery.
Waiting for u to pull me up and get on with life.
I misses u badly...
My body is tearing up inside
really am tired...
Gona break down soon...
any moment....
Will u be there for me?
If i fall and faint?

BADMINTON! 7:18 AM

Had study camp today.
before that played badminton with the sec 1 and marvin.
didn't had the mood to play...IT IS SUPER HOT!
went opposite to buy food.
had study camp.
don know why everytime study camp i am fooking emo....
toook great courage to bring myself to sms her.
maybe she's still mad at me.
after study camp went to play catching with annabelle laypeng glenn suraj shawn marshall and zijian
super fun.but nobody came to catch me....am i really that fast???0.0
keep playing on the swing.missing the time when i was with her at the swing.
thinking of u making me miss u even more....
now at home le....going sleep...BYE!

BADMINTON! 8:31 AM

Hi!Haven been bloggin for a long time cause didn't had the mood to...
I really don't know what i am i doing...
After she was in my life,i felt like a new guy.
Now that she's left,i feel a emptiness in me
i really love u.
i really need u
but what can i do?
u are his,not mine.
Gona try to move on with life.
Lucky i got a nice mei like Gloria.
Always been there for me.
THANKS LITTLE MEI!
Feel so lost.
Let everydown around down.
Physics teacher regretted teaching us
I lack of the motivation to study
I lack of the energy to move on with life
I lack the concentration on my badminton dreams.
I really wish to give it all up,but i can't
Thought u were the 1 to be there for me.
Really feel so remorse.
Till here........

BADMINTON! 5:10 AM